Well, I FINALLY finished “Angel Wings”. I’m not thrilled with it, but my muse for that story was a flighty little bitch and completely abandoned me. I wasn’t too upset, but it sat there in my stories, staring at me asking “Why aren’t I finished yet? You loved me once upon a time!” Unfortunately… well… my ADD got the better of me. I really need some kind of literary-specific Ritalin. Then, maybe, I’d get some of these stories done.
However, I haven’t been idle. I CAN say that I have been working on my entry for the IWTS contest. Yes, again. I had a lot of fun with it last year and decided to try again this year. I swayed back and forth over what style I wanted to write in and eventually decided. Since the entry is not back from judging, I can’t say anything else about it, but I truly look forward to the feedback. The constructive criticism I received last year was invaluable and, as I’ve said before, anything that can help me improve is WELCOME!!
I’m honestly amazed I was able to complete anything considering the flack I got from “The List”. That still burns me and I HATE that my confidence was shaken by anon cowards. I KNOW I’m better than that, but I felt like I was in high school again getting bullied. FF.net REALLY needs to reinstate the ability to block anon reviews. Further, those cowards should live by the universal Granny’s advice of: If you can’t say anything nice, don’t say anything at all. I wonder how many of them have poured their heart and time into producing a creative work, only to have it slammed and pissed all over because it wasn’t to someone else’s liking.
ANYWAY… (deep breath)… I managed to get over my insecurity to do the IWTS contest. I REALLY want the results. The deadline for submissions in July 14, so hopefully I’ll have them soon. Last year I was racing the deadline to the hour, so it’s nice not to have that pressure this year.
Really, more than anything, I was just relieved to be able to submit SOMETHING! I honestly didn’t know if I’d be able to between Fibro flareups, my kids, the divorce, my godawful job and the daily 2-hour commute, and sincere lack of motivation. But I have a vacation coming up: 10 glorious days where I have nothing else to do except lay beside the pool and get as tan as possible. I haven’t been able to do that in YEARS! Does it sound like I’m excited? Cuz I really, REALLY am.
There really isn’t a whole lot to this post and I know it. Most of it was just stuff I needed to get off my chest and this is a lovely place to vent. As soon as I’m judged, I’ll post the IWTS entry here. I am TOTALLY looking forward to it. And I apologize for the gratuitous caps throughout. Since bold and italics don’t carry over when I paste this into WP, it’s just easier to capitalize anything I want emphasis on. I make it simple like that. Until next time.