Something to do on a rainy afternoon…

Well, I FINALLY finished “Angel Wings”. I’m not thrilled with it, but my muse for that story was a flighty little bitch and completely abandoned me. I wasn’t too upset, but it sat there in my stories, staring at me asking “Why aren’t I finished yet? You loved me once upon a time!” Unfortunately… well… my ADD got the better of me. I really need some kind of literary-specific Ritalin. Then, maybe, I’d get some of these stories done.

However, I haven’t been idle. I CAN say that I have been working on my entry for the IWTS contest. Yes, again. I had a lot of fun with it last year and decided to try again this year. I swayed back and forth over what style I wanted to write in and eventually decided. Since the entry is not back from judging, I can’t say anything else about it, but I truly look forward to the feedback. The constructive criticism I received last year was invaluable and, as I’ve said before, anything that can help me improve is WELCOME!!

I’m honestly amazed I was able to complete anything considering the flack I got from “The List”. That still burns me and I HATE that my confidence was shaken by anon cowards. I KNOW I’m better than that, but I felt like I was in high school again getting bullied. REALLY needs to reinstate the ability to block anon reviews. Further, those cowards should live by the universal Granny’s advice of: If you can’t say anything nice, don’t say anything at all. I wonder how many of them have poured their heart and time into producing a creative work, only to have it slammed and pissed all over because it wasn’t to someone else’s liking.

ANYWAY… (deep breath)… I managed to get over my insecurity to do the IWTS contest. I REALLY want the results. The deadline for submissions in July 14, so hopefully I’ll have them soon. Last year I was racing the deadline to the hour, so it’s nice not to have that pressure this year.

Really, more than anything, I was just relieved to be able to submit SOMETHING! I honestly didn’t know if I’d be able to between Fibro flareups, my kids, the divorce, my godawful job and the daily 2-hour commute, and sincere lack of motivation. But I have a vacation coming up: 10 glorious days where I have nothing else to do except lay beside the pool and get as tan as possible. I haven’t been able to do that in YEARS! Does it sound like I’m excited? Cuz I really, REALLY am.

There really isn’t a whole lot to this post and I know it. Most of it was just stuff I needed to get off my chest and this is a lovely place to vent. As soon as I’m judged, I’ll post the IWTS entry here. I am TOTALLY looking forward to it. And I apologize for the gratuitous caps throughout. Since bold and italics don’t carry over when I paste this into WP, it’s just easier to capitalize anything I want emphasis on. I make it simple like that. Until next time.

3 responses to “Something to do on a rainy afternoon…

  1. I am so happy you finished AW and I am EXTREMELY happy you didn’t let anyone or anything keep you from writing because you truly are gifted and have a beautiful way of telling a story. Anon assholes who trash an author’s work are cowards, plain and simple. I would be willing to bet my life savings that NONE of those jackasses have written anything of their own, or if they have they are too chicken to take the leap and post it so the world can scrutinize it. They remind me of a few RL people I know who count others failures as their successes. I honestly pity them and love that you have been able to rise above. Just another beautiful character trait you possess. Love you honey!!

  2. Screw them anon bitches on FF. “The List” was a great story & you should be proud of it! Wish you the best of luck in the IWTS contest & look forward to the story. Sounds like you have nice therapy planned for yourself! Go for it! Take care!

  3. Hi, I’m sorry to bother you again.

    Your message above mentions that you had completed your “Angel Wings”. I have not been able to find the story anywhere – not here on your site, nor on FFNet. Is there any way to get a copy of it from you or maybe directions to where I could find it? It seemed to be a well loved and often recommended story. Since I came to the fandom so very late, it looks like I might have missed out on a great story.

    Please let me know if it’s possible to still find/get/read “Angel Wings”.
    Thanks again very much.
    Best always,

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